Tough

I really imagined

More than once

Having lots of fun

With my new classmates

Doing crazy things

Like what we did

Together.

But as time goes by

I realise i can't

Even do such a simple task.

My brother asked my why

And I just reply

That i just can't bring myself to it.

There's really

Nothing much about it.

Far far away

The aspirations I once had

I know there's no way

That they may

Become true.

Maybe its them

Maybe its me

But it seems to be the latter

Cause I am the only one who never

Really participate.

I've said this a lot of times

Repeated myself for a dozen times

But i just can't change

The way things are

The way people are.

I can't force myself to
Cause u cant force anyone
To do something they don't really wanna do

Could you?

The days remaining

Are getting lesser.

Soon
Dawn will break

People get fake.

And i shall lose
The ecstatic mood
And the insane laughter
I got painstakingly.

Back into that world.

The freedom and safeness

Will soon be gone

I will be naked

I will be exposed

Bare to their eyes

All once again

Oh not very nice.

It's gonna be tough

Not gonna get any easier

When alll your fears

Get together

And you're forced back to

That miserable state again
But no matter what

You have to stay sane.

Yes. I know.
I am still unable to let go.
I'm sick of it already.
Now.

For three more tough years

I shall persist
So I say get a grip
And get over with it.

I hope i make it through

I know i can.