Yes. It is just a hamster, but i don't know i just have this surge of emotions over me. Maybe it's the first close death i've even been throughh. I've always said that i'm not afraid of my own death, but that of others'.
I'm now having a real headache. But i wanna say what i need to say.
I've only realised it has been a long time i had a real "cry". Readers of my blog will know i've always been emo-ing about school and all, but all that i did was sob. Sobbing is not crying. It's just a little bit of sniffling and you're done with it. Crying. Crying is the real explosion of your sadness. Thus the phrase "crying out loud".
Maybe it's the society we are turning into. We all want "face". I also didn't know that i'll break down that hard. But it just happens. I got shocked by myself. We don't even have time to cry, do we? We just stifle all those emotions inside and not let those tears stream out. We force them in. Back in. It only all spills out in one big time when something really bad happens.
Sigh. It comes back in waves. Just when i thought it's gone.
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