Repetitions & Resolutions



I've faced my demons
Wrestled these angels to the ground
And all that I could find
Was a thin line between
All the saints and villains
It was crossed in my own eyes

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright
I wouldn't have it any other way

I’m struggling between the facts and fiction
I’m alone
But I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement, then there's me
I’m just trying to survive

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for

Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright
I wouldn't have it any other way
If this was any other day
I pretend to know where I stand
I Just don’t know (just don’t know)
I Just don’t know

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright
I wouldn't have it any other way
Someday I will find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright


Pause.


What makes the difference between a full-fledged adult and a seventeen-turning-eighteen?

Yes i know this topic has surfaced and resurfaced and re-resurfaced again. Nehmind, how many more times can you get. I only have that amount of time left. NOT HAPPY CLOSE THE WINDOW LAH! Teehee. "=p"

Unhappy Adults vs. Happy Children/Teenagers/Adolescents.

Why so unhappy and serious. Work, work, work.

Ah, maybe, as the brain ages, less endorphins are released into the bloodstream per day. And so the grumpiness and lack of enthusiasm.

Or maybe there is a private/secret branch of the government under Ministry of Health which not even SR Nathan has heard about, rightfully named:-

Growth & Development Sector
Hidden Department 1.13
Professional Group, Ministry of Health

and together with a covert intelligence group from the Ministry of Community Development, Youth and Sports, they have this policy called:-

Child Development Act (cap. 1394)

And they will capture you to their headquarters on your twenty-first birthday and inject you with a syringe of maturity cells, and you grow into a mature adult OVERNIGHT. Then they will brainwash you and make up a false memory on how you spent that day, and brainwash all you might have come into contact with that day to keep everything under wraps. And maybe the officers brainwash one another into believing what they are doing is right.

Or they use electrode probes that go into your brain and change your mentality.

And this must be an international consipracy because most of the countries set the legal age at 21.

Or maybe office shirts/skirts/pants are coated with a special type of finishing that makes you behave like a matured old preeeeeck.

Maybe when you're twenty-one you would have accepted the fact that you are old.

And the society doesn't protect you after twenty-first! When you are young you get out of everything. My father always threatened to send me to the girls' home as a kid. Now in eight months(OMFPBG!) i will have legal entry into Changi (Women's) Prison. EEEEEEEE!

So many possibilities right. City of Possibilities har, har.

How would it be if we can programme our life and delete the useless days away so we have sort of a 'refund' and can live those deleted days all over again. See, we can't go back once one day is gone; we can only regret what we've done. And it's too lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. And one day stacks up on another and see wot happens, you realise this year you will be 'celebrating' your eighteenth/nineteenth/twentieth.

Have i mentioned mid-life crisis before. I think i did.

I need to murder myself now.

But first i need to acquire the special power of immortality.

Then i will gulp down a bottle of sleeping pills/jump off DHL balloon/get my brain hypnotized into thinking i'm dead.

Then i wake up in my room finding that i am immortalised.

That way i am gonna stay seventeen forever.

Y.A.Y.

No, it wasn't supposed to make sense. If it did, i think you are not from Earth, are you? Er, just don't hurt me, whoever you are, thanks.

XOXO,
Earthling.


I just discovered cyber treasure in the form of Google's 'define' service. Seriously just type 'define:' and the thing you wanna define. Cool or wot.

The world domination of Bubble Tea.